Week is Ending!

Well, everyone likes Fridays... I'm not sure that I'm going to like mine... I have leg workouts tomorrow and it IS rough! I'm looking forward to doing it though because I know how much its helping in the long run! Dan, the gym manager asked me today if I made another blog post SOOO here I am- making a blog post! :P I do truly love all of the support that the staff at the gym give! They root you on while you go even when you yourself don't think you can go anymore. My first day training, another member, didn't know me but passed by and said "Keep up the good work!" I was amazed! Whenever I thought of the gym, it was always very intimidating to me. The fear to be judged. Then I thought, well, if they judge me for trying to change- that's on them- not me. BUT I didn't need to worry anyway or at least not at my gym. I got welcomed to their gym family and I feel at home <3

On the road to healthier me

Okay so at the beginning of this year, I decided to make a change. While everyone else was making New Year Resolutions- I was not. I didn't want to make a New Year Resolution and then feel pressured that that was why I was doing it! No! I needed to make a change, I'm obese and it doesn't feel good. I didn't just *need* to make a change, I wanted to! That's the biggest thing for me... I always thought, "I need to eat healthier....... buuuuuuuuuutt I really don't want to stop eating all the good stuff" Well, now I'm too the point in my mind set that the good stuff while I still enjoy the taste-- isn't good for me and it'll take some adjusting but I'm willing to find other foods that I can like just as much (or will learn to love as much) that are healthier for me. I do not *just* want to LOSE the weight... I want to be thinner, yes, but what happens after I've lost all the weight that I want... do I go back to old habits?! ABSOLUTELY NOT!! I'm making a lifestyle change... 'til death do us part! I'm looking forward, not back. 

So I started changing how much I was eating. I have a big problem with when something tastes super yummy to not go back for seconds... and I also have an issue with wasting food so if I got a bunch of food on my plate-- I felt that I needed to eat it until it was gone, not just until I was satisfied. Then I added working out with videos, but I began to learn quickly while they're great.. I currently need some guidance on what I need to doing. So, my next was to get a gym membership. It was especially nice for me to be able to do that because my insurance pays me back so much a month if I go at least 8 times a month. So seemed like an extra perk even since I wanted to do it anyway! I signed up at Anytime Fitness (that is 24 hour gym so no excuses, right?) and the next day I met with the Fitness Director. We did a training session and I quickly realized that at least for awhile, I really did need a trainer. It's not that I wouldn't lose weight without one but I wouldn't lose it in the right places and gain all the muscle that I want too. Like I said in the beginning, I don't want to be just skinny. I want to be healthy but to also get fit!

There was a woman on the news this morning for here in Indianapolis, who was 347 pounds and lost 170 pounds in 1 year! I want to do that! Not so much about the 1 year but she was heavy and got thinner and now she's leading Zumba classes and such. She talked about how much pain she was in that she could barely walk. I didn't get that bad but it is painful to walk sometimes in the morning when I wake up or whenever I stand up from a sitting position, but once I get moving it goes away.  I'm kind of hoping that I'll do something with my success once I reach it like that! Either way, I'm not giving up on me and I feel really good about it!!

I started at 260.8 on January 5th. I just weighed myself tonight and I'm at 252.4. Normally I wouldn't be so open about how much I weigh and need to lose but again, time for a change. I need to own it. *BUT* I'm moving away from it so I don't mind so much too.

This was me over the summer.